What I Can't Have

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    The debut album by Ess-Em is finally here! After 5 years of writing and gigging around Sydney and Newcastle, the Sydney based pianist/accordionisma finally has finally something to show for it.
    The punk/gypsy/folk/pop, self-titled debut features 7 renowned guest musicians including dub/reggae percussion powerhouse Declan Kelly, and members from The Button Collective and Scarlet's Revenge.
    The album is presented in a lovely gatefold card case with booklet, artwork by Sarah-Marie Marriott and Reese Geronimo.

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There’s a sun in the sky
And it’s beating on my skin and spine,
It reminds me of you;
It makes me unhappy.
And I feel like the norm
When I feel safe and warm,
You come along and take what I need,
I’m not really breathing.

You’re what I can’t have,
You’re what I don’t want,
But what do I have
When I don’t know what I want?
I need to find myself
Away with no one else
Till I find what I could have
When my heart knows what it wants.

Like the stars shine at night;
I am my own light
Casting a shadow over your mind -
Eternal darkness.
In a few days or more,
I will make my own call,
Difference between ‘what to want’ and ‘to have’?
I think we should end this.


from Ess​-​Em, track released September 7, 2015
Sarah-Marie Marriott: Vocals, Piano, Accordion
Jake Pember: Double Bass
Declan Kelly: Percussion
Simon Wale: Drum Kit



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Ess-em is the solo project for local Sydney-based pianist/accordionisma SM Marriott.

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